I dont ask for anything for myself, just wants mom dad to be proud of myself and wants to do everything so they can have a peceful life and also wants to help many others too. But I am not at that point of my life where I can just pretend my life is great and do paath without expecting waheguru to help me fixing my life. We should only do paath out of love and i do love gurbani. Paath does brings a hope within me but then when I hear people saying how it's wrong to do paath to get things. Eveyr morning I wake up about giving up this life But I will never do that.
I have a lot of fear, self sabotizing, feeling of being a burden and useless. Without getting into any detail, I just want to say i deftly need help.
I have heard and read about sava lakh mul mantar gursikhs do and how I should do paath if I wants to change my life. Waheguru jee ka khalsa, waheguru jee kee fateh.